Thursday, May 29, 2014
Saturday, May 17, 2014
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Hi. I'm back. I'm still here. Hehe I can't find my way out. Really. Yeah. Seriously. And it really kills me. Seeing myself still on the same spot where you left me for about six months ago. While you, you're ok now. Glad that you can withstand your decisions now. Good for you. Bad for me. Haha i guess. I dunno. But I'm trying to get out to this fuckin situation. I'm really trying. No one wants to be in this situation. No one. Just me. Just fucking me! Because its the only way I know to be with you. To be with you is all I want. But you just don't let me. That fact kills me! It kills me everyday! You don't have any idea how miserable I am now. Whybdo I need to suffer like this huh? I'm trying to be strong to face another tomorrow without you. Can you imagine where am I getting those strenghts I'm using everyday to throw jokes, fake smiles and laughs to the people around me? Can you imagine how tired I am now pretending to be happy where in fact I really want to give up and cry for the rest of my life? Can you imagine how badly I need you in my life and yet you're just neglecting me? Can you imagine how sad I am right now? I am sad beyond its meaning. And I don't know how will I appreciate the meaning of happiness again. I'm losing hope.
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